Posted in Conventions and Guesting

Convention News! FujoCon BoysLove+ Virtual Con PLUS Call for Panelists!

Hi everyone! Got some big news to share: I’m a guest author at this year’s FujoCon, a virtual gathering celebrating all things BL, shipping, fandom, and more! It’s a free, three-day event featuring panels, screenings, games and more with lots of cool guests! The dates are June 11-13, 2021.

I’m planning to do a round-table panel, and the topic I’d like to focus on is the intersection between queer and trans identities and m/m romance. By now most of us know that m/m romance and gay fiction is loved by more than just straight women and gay men. I’d like to put together a rainbow panel of different queer and genderqueer authors/creators to talk about why they are drawn to m/m and try to get to the bottom of why the genre attracts so many queer-identifying folks. It’s a fascinating topic, and the folks at FujoCon are super enthusiastic about it. It should be a really fun panel!

If you’re a queer author or creator and would be interested in participating in the panel, please shoot me an email at jes.k.pendragon@gmail.com and tell me a little bit about yourself and why you’re interested. All panelists will get a Guest spot at the Con and be promoted on their website. Panel submissions are due by May 1st, so please reach out ASAP!


In other news, Junior Hero Blues came out last week! It’s been receiving some great reviews, and I’m so glad folks are enjoying it! Please consider checking it out if you haven’t already! I also still have some Free Reads available to check out if you’d like a sample of my work.

Thank you for reading, and hope to see you in June at FujoCon!

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Release Day! Junior Hero Blues is now Available!

Great news! Junior Hero Blues is now available for purchase here and here! It’s is a tongue-in-cheek YA superhero story with a gay protagonist and lots of silliness that covers some dark topics as well.

Over on Queer Sci-Fi there’s an excerpt and a giveaway of a $50 gift card for NineStar Press! You could get so many queer books for that! 🤩

Anyway, here is the excerpt and cover for Junior Hero Blues. Please consider checking it out!

Junior Hero Blues

Wordcount: 59,000
Genre: YA, Superhero, Gay

Last year, Javier Medina was your average socially awkward gay high schooler with a chip on his shoulder. This year, he’s . . . well, pretty much the same, but with bonus superpowers, a costume with an ab window to show off his new goods, and a secret identity as the high-flying, wise-cracking superhero Blue Spark.

But being a Junior Hero means that Javier gets all the responsibility and none of the cool gadgets. It’s hard enough working for the Legion of Liberty and fighting against the evil Organization, all while trying to keep on top of school work and suspicious parents. Add in a hunky boyfriend who’s way out of Javier’s league, and an even hunkier villain who keeps appearing every time said boyfriend mysteriously disappears, and Blue Spark is in for one big dollop of teenage angst. All while engaging in some epic superhero action and, oh yeah, an all-out battle to protect Liberty City from the forces of evil.

Welcome to the 100% true and totally unbiased account of life as a teenage superhero.

Thanks for reading!

Posted in Books, Coming Soon, New Release

Book News! Junior Hero Blues Cover + Release Date, plus Ink & Flowers Ebook!

Hello all! Got some exciting news to share! Junior Hero Blues has a brand new cover, and a release date of March 29th! PLUS if you pre-order you get it 3 days early! Here’s the new cover:

I love it! It feels like an upgraded version of the old cover. ☺️

I’ve been having fun with artbreeder.com and came up with portraits of the two main characters:

So much fun! Oh and also here’s a moodboard I did a while ago.

What, you want to know what the book is actually about? Okay, fine:

Last year, Javier Medina was your average socially awkward gay high schooler with a chip on his shoulder. This year, he’s…well, pretty much the same, but with bonus superpowers, a costume with an ab window to show off his new goods, and a secret identity as the high-flying, wise-cracking superhero Blue Spark.

But being a Junior Hero means that Javier gets all the responsibility and none of the cool gadgets. It’s hard enough working for the Legion of Liberty and fighting against the evil Organization, all while trying to keep on top of school work and suspicious parents. Add in a hunky boyfriend who’s way out of Javier’s league, and an even hunkier villain who keeps appearing every time said boyfriend mysteriously disappears, and Blue Spark is in for one big dollop of teenage angst. All while engaging in some epic superhero action and, oh yeah, an all-out battle to protect Liberty City from the forces of evil.

Welcome to the 100% true and totally unbiased account of life as a teenage superhero.

Can’t wait to once again share Javier and Rick with you. This book was so much fun to write, and is really special to me. ☺️ I hope you’ll consider checking it out!


Other news!

Ink & Flowers is now available to download as an ebook on Kindle and Kobo! It’s been out of print for a while, except for the Audiobook so it’s great to finally have it available again!

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Ink & Flowers is right now the only contemporary novel I have, and it’s full of coming out themes and anxiety, something that I struggled with a lot in my early 20s. It’s a personal book, but it’s also a little escapist. Here’s the blurb:

About to lose his apartment, and desperate to avoid having to move in with his horrendous relatives, shy art student Luke impulsively agrees to a deal from hell: sex with a man he doesn’t know in exchange for a couch to sleep on.

His new “roommate” Cooper is everything that Luke hates: crude, uncouth, and covered in tattoos, not to mention openly gay. Luke has all but resigned himself to a miserable fate when it turns out Cooper might want something a little different than he expected.

I hope you’ll consider checking it out as well! I think that’s all the news I have today, but I have another big announcement coming soon, so stick around!

Thanks for reading and here’s a picture of my cat looking out the window.

Posted in Books

FREE READS – M/M Romance Novellas Now Available at JKPendragon.com

That’s right, turns out there IS such thing as a free lunch ebook!

I’ve had a few older books sitting around that for various reasons I didn’t feel like were right to re-publish. They’re stories that I wrote when I was quite a bit younger, and I don’t feel like they necessarily reflect who I am as an author anymore…. so why not make them available for everyone to read as an introduction to my writing! 😅 Makes total sense.

Well, in any case, the PDFs are all there at ✨FREE READS✨ (the emojis are important.)

I’ll also be working on getting them uploaded to Amazon and Kobo for 99 cents each so you can have them on your e-reader if you like. I have a few more shorts that I will probably add at some point, so keep an eye out. Please share with your friends, and if you read and enjoy, consider checking out my New Releases and Coming Soon! I’ve also set up a Ko-Fi so if you feel so inclined after reading you can offer a tip.

Thanks so much for reading! Here is a picture of my cat annoyed at me for interrupting her favourite show:

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Cover Reveal! Witch, Cat and Cobb Releasing Dec 14 with NineStar Press

Hello! It’s already that time. Witch, Cat and Cobb comes out in less than 2 weeks, and I have the absolutely gorgeous cover for you!

It’s by the incomparable Natasha Snow, and I’m in love with it. 💜

Release date is December 11 and you can pre-order here for $2.99.

Witch, Cat and Cobb is a fun little fluffy fantasy romance with lots of magic and whimsy that was a total joy to write, and I hope you will enjoy reading it too. On a serious note, the whole situation with, well, you-know-who (if you’re unfamiliar, just google “jk rowling terf”) was what really kicked my butt into gear to start working on getting my books re-published, and WC&C was first on my list. Rather than getting angry and stewing, I would rather move forward and write a bunch of joyous magical stories filled with trans people. And this is one of them!

Here is the official blurb:

Destined for an arranged marriage she wants nothing to do with, Princess Breanwynne decides her only option for escape is to run away. After announcing this plan to her trusted cat, Fen, she’s shocked when he asks that she take him along.

Following his suggestion to venture into the lair of the Swamp Witch begins a life-altering adventure and reveals shocking information that will lead to more than one happily ever after—if she and Fen survive.

Hope you will check it out!

Have a wonderful holiday season. 😊

Posted in Blog, Coming Soon

I’m Alive! Re-publishing News and General Update

Long time, no see! If it wasn’t obvious, I haven’t been doing much of anything publishing related for the last couple of years. To be honest, I was pretty burnt out, and thinking about taking a step back, even before all my books ended up going out of print, so it was a good opportunity for me to just take a break for a while. Sometimes I get too invested in things, and put all my time and energy into them, and the end result is that I end up completely burning out and not wanting anything to do with it for a while.

Life has been good though! I have a new office job, I moved to a new city (only 45 minutes away from the old city though), I’ve discovered a passion for vintage and antique selling (watch me get way too into it and burnout, natch) and I medically transitioned, which has done wonders for my mental health. And I’ve decided that it’s finally time to dip my feet back into publishing.

So with that, I’m happy to announce that I’ve signed contracts with Ninestar Press to re-publish Witch, Cat and Cobb and Junior Hero Blues! They’ll both be getting makeovers, and full re-edits. WC&C will be out in December, and JHB sometime next year! I’ll continue to post updates here and on my Twitter as I get more news. I also intend to work on re-publishing Ink & Flowers, To Summon Nightmares, and Sea Lover, and I’ll be sure to update when I have more news for those!

As for the future… I’m not sure. I would like to write more, but I’m not going to push it. I’d like to rediscover the joy I took in writing, but for that I have to let go of the pressure of deadlines, expectations, reviews and all the drama that comes with the publishing world. When I look back on myself from a few years ago, I see someone who was passionate about publishing, educating and changing the world (that was actually in my first author bio – that I wanted to change the world one queer book at a time) but who gave too much of themself, and left themself exposed to too many potentially traumatic situations. I don’t think I can still be that person and protect myself at the same time. So I have to be a little more reserved, I think, and a little more cautious. Maybe just my existence as a non-binary queer person writing the books I want is enough. Well, it’s going to have to be.

Anyway, lets end this post on a classic note. In case you were wondering about my cat, she is doing just fine! Here she is in all her glory:

Talk to you soon!

Posted in Awards, Blog, Books, Coming Soon, Uncategorized

News! The Fairy Gift Re-release – New Cover – #Trans wins Best LGBT Memoir/Biography at Rainbow Awards!

Hello everyone! Long time, no blog! I hope everyone who celebrates had a wonderful holiday season! I was actually down with a bad cold for most of the holidays, so I didn’t get much celebrating done. I did go and see The Shape of Water, which was excellent and filled the fishman-romance-shaped hole in my heart.

This blog post is just to share a couple different pieces of exciting news! First up, The Fairy Gift has been picked up for re-release by Less Than Three Press! A new, lightly polished second edition will be available for purchase on January 24th, and is has a new cover!

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It’s so pretty! @.@ If you haven’t read The Fairy Gift, it was my first published book, and it’s a fun, sexy fairy tale about a plain young man who receives seductive powers from a fairy and is dragged into a world of magic and romance. And brothels. If you’re up for a light, tropey read, check it out! Pre-order here.

The other exciting news is that the trans memoir anthology I contributed to, #Trans did really well at this year’s Rainbow Awards! It tied for first place in the LGBT Memoir/Anthology category, and got second place in Best Transgender Book. Here’s what they had to say about it:

1) Trans was somewhat painful to read – not by any fault of the author but as a collection of difficult and heartfelt stories it was heart wrenching, but I felt it was a book that needed to be written and will be loved by many.
2) I rather like that each piece was allowed to create it’s own setting. The diversity of the pieces was part of the power of the book. The voice of each essay allowed me to glimpse into different worlds and gave me a clearer understanding of many things.
3) #Trans brings use collection of genuine stories from transgender and non-binary writers who share their heartfelt experiences and insightful thoughts on identity formation and how it has been impacted by technology, film, literature, social media, and music. Well written and edited, this is a must read for youth and adults.
4) #Trans is by turns academic, thoughtful, and provocative, providing insights and deconstruction of what it means to occupy a body in space and time… and how the internet has made it more possible than ever to find the others asking those same questions.
5) Thought provoking and informative, well written and edited, I really loved this book. It sparked quite a few family discussions! 
This was a total departure for me, but I’m really happy with how the anthology came out, and super proud of how well-received it’s been. Evelyn did an amazing job with it!
Well, I think that’s everything. I hope everyone has a wonderful New Year, and gets to read lots of excellent books. As usual, here is a picture of my cat being cute this Christmas:
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Thanks for reading, and Happy New Year!
Posted in Blog, Transition

Visualizing Self: Gender Identity in a Vacuum

Imagine your ideal self. How does it differ from how you look now? Are you more attractive? More masculine, more feminine? Skinnier, fatter? How does your voice sound? How do you have sex?

Now imagine your ideal self again, but in a social vacuum. Are you attractive in the way our society defines attractiveness? Are you masculine or feminine without the societal stereotypes attached to those things? Is the way you want to have sex the way society wants you to have sex?

How much of your ideal self is based on what other people think of you?

For a long time I didn’t want to medically transition. “I don’t want to go on hormones. I don’t want my voice to be lower, or to have more facial hair. I don’t want to have to explain the changes to people.” “My breasts are attractive, I don’t want to get rid of them. How would I explain it to my family?

Anxiety is a bitch. But I’ve been on anti-depressants that help with anxiety for a couple of years now. And I’ve started to realize that my reasons for not transitioning weren’t so much to do with what I wanted, but with what other people expected.

I’ve spent so much time trying to visualize my “ideal self.” Not having a societal representation of non-binary existence doesn’t help. But then again, the societal representation of “masculine” is not what I want to be either. I have to create that vacuum. I have to visualize myself in that space where “masculine” and “feminine” are not personality traits, but simply the body’s response to different hormones.

And more importantly, I’ve had to create a vacuum where who I want to be isn’t influenced by the anxiety I feel about coming out, explaining my androgyny to people, dealing with the response from my family. It’s just… who I want to be.

I do want to have a lower voice. I don’t want breasts. Maybe I do want to be a man,  but I want to be a radically different kind of man than what our current society says a man is.

Coming out sucks. Having to explain myself to people sucks. But it is what it is. And I can’t let those things affect my gender identity. As cliche as it sounds, I’m on the path to being the truest version of myself, and I don’t want to be stuck in traffic anymore.


Life updates!

In January I visited Dr Melady Preece in Vancouver, BC. I sat with her for an hour and talked about my experiences with dysphoria, and my desire for top surgery. At that time she suggested to me the possibility of going on a low dose of androgel to help ease the other symptoms of dysphoria. I didn’t like the idea at the time, but a few weeks later, I emailed her and asked if she could include a recommendation for HRT in her letter to my physician.

A couple months later, my physician received my diagnosis of gender dysphoria and letter of recommendation for top surgery from Dr Preece. He forwarded it to Dr. Bowman in Vancouver, and I’m now on the waitlist for top surgery.

I also asked my physician about my options regarding HRT, and he recommended me to Dr. Tregoning in Abbotsford, who is an endocrinologist who specializes in providing HRT to transgender patients. I made an appointment to see him, and we talked about my options. I stressed that my period was giving me a lot of dysphoria and I wanted a way to stop it without taking a lot of testosterone. I suggested the idea of estrogen blockers, and we decided to try that out.

So as of today I’m three weeks into a month-dose of estrogen blockers, and three weeks on testosterone! And the longer I’m on it, the more impatient I am for the results because, a few days before I started, I posted this picture on facebook:

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…and basically told everyone that I was starting HRT. And now that that’s out of the way, suddenly I do feel like I want the effects of testosterone after all. Hence what this post is about.

I posted about it so publicly because (besides wanting to get coming out out of the way) one of the main reasons I decided to transition medically is because I finally started to see other non-binary people doing it. Visibility and representation are so, so important for trans people. It’s where we look once we’ve finally managed to find ourselves in that vacuum. It can be lonely in there. And I want to be visible to others.


Promo time! I haven’t been working on anything much lately, but here are my three latest projects:

Junior Hero Blues is a gay superhero YA novel I published last year with Riptide Press’s YA Imprint Triton. Sea Lover is a m/m trans romance novella about a fisherman and a selkie that I published with Less Than Three Press also last year, and #TRANS is an independent collection of essays by trans people about their experiences online that I contributed to.

If any of these three interest you at all, please check them out!

And finally, no blog post would be complete without this beauty: IMG_0280

FEAST YOUR EYES!

Thanks for reading, everyone! I know I haven’t been active lately, but this blog still exists, and I really wanted to take the time to talk about my transition. Hope you enjoyed!

Posted in Blog, Blog Tours, Uncategorized

#Trans Blog Hop – An Anthology about Transgender and Nonbinary Identity Online

Hi guys! Guess who nearly forgot that I was supposed to write this blog post! In my defense I’ve been working all week and um… it’s  my birthday tomorrow?

b7b5193632599af1554c82fa0950e4f061ad71aeAnyway, this post is part of a blog hop to promote a new collection of essays put together by the amazing Evelyn Deshane called #Trans about how transness intersects with technology and the internet. It’s subject that’s near and dear to my heart because (like a lot of people) I discovered that I was trans because of the internet. If it wasn’t for the community and support I’ve found online, I would probably still be very alone and confused. I believe the internet and online communities have revolutionized the queer experience, allowing otherwise isolated young queer people to discover a community of people like them, to connect and grow together.

My essay, which is called Trans Romance and Radical Love: My Autobiography in Binder Rippers (couldn’t pass that title up,) is about existing as a trans person in the larger LGBT+ romance community. I talk about both the good and bad aspects of it, from discovering my identity alongside other non-binary authors, to the difficulty trans authors in the communities have faced and continued to face. It was actually a pretty difficult essay to write because some of the stuff I talk about is still pretty upsetting for me, but Eve was an absolutely phenomenal editor and she helped me turn my personal ramblings into an essay that I’m pretty proud of.

So, #Trans is available at Amazon and Smashwords now! Here’s the blurb:

#Trans is an essay collection featuring the works of twenty transgender and nonbinary writers as they share their experiences with online communities, video games, and dating apps–among other technologies. Each author’s experience of their identity breaks away from the typical transgender narrative that is predominantly hung up on surgery and medical intervention. While that aspect is still a part of the story for some of these writers, surgery has never been the sole inspiration which pushes these writers forward.

Whether it was the love of a particular movie, the desire to share a feeling on social media, or a song they couldn’t get out of their heads, these twenty writers’ experiences of their identity have been shaped by media, technology, and the internet. And now, #Trans is ready to share with all of you.

It’s also going to be available in print on March 31st. If it sounds at all interesting, please go check it out, and maybe leave a review if you feel up to it! That would be great!

You can check out the official site here, and I’ll list the other stops on the blog hop below.

Thanks for reading, and hope you’re all having a great spring!

#Trans Blog Hop Schedule:
March 10th: Eve Deshane blogging evedeshane.wordpress.com.
March 13th: Erika D. Price blogging on their tumblr.
March 17th Ariel Estrella on their website.
March 20th: J.K. Pendragon on their website.
March 22nd: Gabriel D. Vidrine on their tumblr.
March 24th: Velvl Ryder on his website.
March 29th: Allen Hope on #Trans site.

 

Posted in Books, Giveaway, New Release, Uncategorized

JUNIOR HERO BLUES Blog Tour! Dates and Giveaways

My hard work has finally paid off! JUNIOR HERO BLUES is now available and the truckload of blog posts I wrote about it are crashing out of the back of the truck at an alarming rate and onto a computer screen near you!

That was a weird metaphor. Anyway, blog tour!

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Along with me rambling about just about everything superhero and writing related I could come up with, I’m also giving away three $15 Amazon gift cards! Just leave a comment with your email address on any of the posts to be entered.

In case you want to leave your name on every single one of the posts, here’s the links to where and when they’ll be posted:

November 7, 2016 Joyfully Jay
November 7, 2016 Bayou Book Junkie
November 8, 2016 Prism Book Alliance
November 8, 2016 The Novel Approach
November 8, 2016 The Day Before You Came
November 9, 2016 Love Bytes Reviews
November 9, 2016 Diverse Reader
November 10, 2016 Dog-Eared Daydreams
November 10, 2016 Booklover Sue
November 10, 2016 MM Good Book Reviews
November 11, 2016 Book Reviews and More by Kathy
November 11, 2016 My Fiction Nook
November 11, 2016 OMG Reads

Have fun reading guys, and don’t forget to enter the giveaway!
Update: Giveaway winners have been selected. Thank you for entering, everyone!
You can purchase copies of JUNIOR HERO BLUES at all these fine retailers:
Cheers!